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  I push the thought aside, and with a last grunt I finish my set of presses. I lie on my back on the bench, chest heaving.

  “You’re going to wind up hideously out of proportion if you keep that up.”

  The voice is unexpected, and I sit up so quickly that I almost hit my head on the bar.

  Olivia.

  She’s wearing a sports bra and matching athletic shorts in…wait for it…pink. There’s an iPod in her hand and a water bottle under her arm. It’s obvious that she’s here to use the gym herself, not to hound me. Probably could have figured that out from the way she looks. Her smoking body has been well earned.

  She moves toward me, and although her ponytail is as perky as ever, she has shadows under her eyes and her expression is more guarded than it was yesterday. She’s put walls between us, keeping me at a distance.

  I feel a flash of regret, even as I mentally congratulate her. And myself. Mission accomplished, asshole.

  “You’re going to be disproportionate,” she repeats. “All bulky and ridiculous on top, and scrawny on the bottom.”

  “I’m not scrawny,” I say immediately. Why are we talking about this instead of last night?

  She comes closer, reaching out a hand and plucking at the fabric of my pants. She raises an eyebrow. “Yeah? When was the last time you wore shorts?”

  I lift my eyebrows right back. “You saw me in boxers last night. Did you see scrawny?”

  She snatches her hand back. “We’re not talking about last night.”

  “I thought you’d be back in New York by now. Or at least all up my face demanding an apology.”

  Her expression never changes. “I thought about it. But I need some distance from New York, and I know better than to expect an apology, so…” She holds out her arms as though to say, Here we are, deal with it.

  Her matter-of-fact reaction to last night pisses me off. She should be demanding an apology—what the hell is wrong with her that she isn’t? Even more annoying…why do I want to give one?

  “When was the last time you did any sort of lower-body workout?” she asks, oblivious to my inner turmoil.

  I snatch her water bottle and take a long drink as I study her. “Not your business.”

  She pretends to think about this. “Oh, wait a second, actually it is my business. If you want, I can get you my job description. It specifically says—”

  “I’m sure it does,” I interrupt. “But you can go ahead and scratch that physical portion off because I’m not doing it.”

  “Ten leg lifts,” she says calmly, ignoring me.

  “What?” I ask, annoyed, as I get into a standing position. “No way.”

  “We can start them easy. No weight at all.”

  “I’m going back to the house,” I mutter, leaning down to grab my towel.

  She moves in front of me. “Five. Leg lifts.”

  I roll my eyes. “You’re a terrible negotiator. You lower your price too quickly even before you’ve offered an enticing reward.”

  “I’m not haggling with you for the thrill of it. I’m just trying to do my job.” She puts her hands on her hips. It reminds me that my hands were on that very spot not so long ago. And that I want them to be there again.

  I tear my eyes away from the enticing points of her hip bone.

  “Why is this your job?” I ask.

  She jerks her shoulders back a little, defensively. Interesting. “What?”

  “Why is coaxing me to work my shit leg your job of choice? My little recon exercise says you were a marketing major. Didn’t Daddy want you in the lucrative family business?”

  Her eyes flit away from mine. “Sure. That was the original plan.”

  “What changed?” I ask, surprised to realize that I’m genuinely interested.

  “Life,” she snaps. “And we’re not talking about me.”

  “Obviously we are,” I counter, taking another gulp of her water.

  She opens her mouth, probably to tell me to fuck off, but then she seems to reconsider. She tilts her head, and just then I realize exactly what I’ve set myself up for.

  “I’ll trade you one question for ten leg lifts.”

  “Nope,” I reply, already turning around. “No way.”

  “Come on,” she says, scooting around to get in front of me. “Don’t you want to know why a hot twenty-two-year-old with everything going for her is hiding out here in Maine?”

  I give her a glance over my shoulder. “Did you just call yourself hot?”

  Olivia smiles a gotcha smile. “Aren’t I?”

  I flick my eyes over her. Yes. “Maybe.”

  “So you’re in? Ten leg lifts for one question?”

  I hesitate, even though my brain is demanding I walk away now. “Will I get the real story?” I ask. “Or some bullshit evasion?”

  “I’ll give you a true statement, but no guarantees that it’s the whole story. Final offer.”

  “Not good enough.”

  She sighs. “How about I’ll give you a true statement, and I’ll let you give me running pointers tomorrow?”

  I put a hand over my chest. “I can’t believe this is happening. All my dreams are coming true.”

  “You in or out, Langdon?”

  Walk away. Walk the hell away.

  Her green eyes are practically bursting with challenge. And, even more intriguing, secrets.

  “Fuck it. I’m in.”

  Chapter Thirteen

  Olivia

  Yeah, okay. So agreeing to answer Paul Langdon’s questions isn’t going to go in my Good Choices Hall of Fame. But to be totally fair, I’ve been pretty short on good choices lately, so this feels about par for the course.

  However, that doesn’t make it any easier to think about the possibility of spilling my guts, even though I fully intend to censor the heck out of whatever truth I have to give him.

  For a second I’m about to back out and tell him there’s no way I’m going to spill my guts just to bribe him to do something he should have started a long time ago.

  But then I see the tension on his face when he looks at the waiting leg-press machine. He’s nervous. I mean, he’s pissed too, because I’m guessing I’m not the only one who’s furious about getting backed into a corner.

  But it’s not Paul’s anger that has me swallowing my pride and pushing on with our agreement, even at the expense of my own privacy. It’s his unease.

  He’s afraid of failing.

  As he starts to head toward the leg-press machine like it’s the guillotine, I mentally throw away the bubblegum pep talk that I figure is written in the Caretaker 101 textbook for this type of situation. We’re supposed to be our client’s cheerleaders, but this guy needs something entirely different. Acting entirely on instinct, my hand reaches out and gives him a sharp smack on the ass.

  He halts, throwing me an incredulous look over his shoulder. His very nice, very sculpted shoulder, by the way.

  “What was that?” he snaps.

  I shrug as though touching his firm and, um, perfect ass cheek is no big deal. “Thought you needed a little encouragement.”

  He lifts his eyebrows. “Oh, absolutely. I could use some encouragement. Why don’t I show you what sort of encouragement would rev my engines?” His eyes drop to my chest, and my nipples tighten in response.

  Well…crap. That backfired.

  I shoo him forward. “Chop-chop, Langdon. I don’t have all day. Women need to exercise too.”

  He gives me an understanding nod. “Kegels. I get it.”

  I make a face and jab a finger at the bench. “Sit.”

  There’s no fear on his face anymore. It’s perfectly blank, as though he’s preparing himself for failure.

  “Okay,” I say, moving over to the machine, grateful that my mom’s had me going to a personal trainer since I was sixteen. Sort of psycho, now that I think about it, but at least I know my way around weight machines.

  His right leg immediately falls into place, but he hesitates bef
ore moving his left leg into position. He’s wearing blue sweatpants, so I can’t see his injured leg, and although I hate to admit it, I’m kind of glad.

  Granted, I could have looked at it last night when I barged in on him in his boxers, but I had more important things to worry about. Like the fact that the guy had some seriously messed-up dreams. And that he knew his way all too well around my body in way too short a time.

  I shake my head a little to clear it, carefully avoiding meeting his eyes.

  “You’re blushing,” he says. “Whatcha thinking about?”

  I give him a glare. I’m pretty sure he knows exactly what I’m thinking about. His expression flickers with something—remorse?—and for a second I think he’s going to apologize for last night. He should apologize.

  And yet…I don’t want him to. That would somehow make me into the victim of the situation, and I was very much in control. Well, not in control of my hormones. But I know that if I’d told him to back off, he would have. He hurt my pride, but not me. I’d wanted every second of pleasure that he gave me, even if it was for all the wrong reasons. I don’t want an apology for that.

  My gaze locks with his. Drop it.

  His eyes narrow slightly before he looks away.

  Good boy.

  I make a big show of checking the weight, but it’s already at the lowest setting. Probably the factory setting, since I bet it’s never been used.

  “Ready when you are,” I say quietly.

  His lips press together for a second as he rolls his shoulders in irritation. “Do you have to watch?”

  I give a careless little shrug. “I watched the rest of your workout.”

  “That was different,” he grinds out. “And, for the record, creepy.”

  “Couldn’t be helped. You can do a crazy number of pull-ups. I doubt I could do five.”

  “You think you can do one?”

  “Hey!” I say.

  Paul lifts his hands, all innocence. “They’re hard. I knew a handful of women in boot camp who couldn’t do more than two. Men too.”

  I open my mouth to argue, except I have no idea if I can do even one pull-up. I jab a finger toward his chest. “You’re stalling. And I already said I’d answer one of your dumb questions. Don’t try to sweet-talk me into a pull-up too.”

  “Yeah, that’s what every guy wants to see. A girl trying to do a pull-up.”

  If it’s anything like watching men do pull-ups, it wouldn’t be half bad. There was something about Paul in his gray tank top and those blue sweatpants hugging lean hips as he lifted himself over and over and…

  My thoughts about his perfect back scatter as I realize his legs are moving. I have to dig my nails into my palm to keep from touching him in encouragement.

  The first time is ridiculously easy for him, and it’s clear he’s using his good leg to lift the weight.

  Same with the second time.

  And the third. And the fourth. And the fifth. The right leg doing all the work, with the left just along for the ride.

  No way. Not good enough. Now I do touch him. Just a gentle touch above his good knee, but it’s enough to make him pause. His eyes fly to mine, although he quickly turns his head so he’s not facing me head-on. Like in most gyms, the lighting in here is fairly bright, and abruptly I realize it’s the first time I’ve had the chance to see his scars up close, without the shadows of dawn or dusk, or his gloomy den, or his dark bedroom.

  There are no shadows to soften his scars in here, but I didn’t even notice. I know they’re there, of course, but somehow they’re just part of the complex package that is Paul Langdon.

  But I know he doesn’t see it that way. So when he turns away, I avert my eyes. First we’ll fix the leg. Then we’ll work on getting him to accept his new face.

  I press my hand gently on his knee again, silently telling him to relax his good leg and let the other one do the work. From the shuddering breath he lets out, I know he understands my request.

  His hands fist at his sides, and for a second I think he’s going to tell me to fuck off, but then the bar starts to rise again. Slower this time. But steadily.

  Six, I mentally count.

  He lowers his leg, staring at it as though surprised to find that it’s actually moving when he wants it to.

  The bar moves again. Still slowly, but still steadily. Seven.

  This time the bar drops with more of a clank, and my heart twists as I realize just how much weaker that leg really is.

  But he doesn’t quit. Again, slower still. Eight. Then a painstaking ninth rep.

  The bar halts halfway through the tenth, and his breathing is harsh. I slip my hand in his, trying to communicate palm to palm that he can do this.

  His fingers clench around mine so hard I swear I hear bones crunch, but it’s worth it to see him lift a few more inches. The bar falls quickly this time as his leg gives out, and the clank of metal seems to go on forever before I finally tear my eyes away from his leg to meet his gaze.

  He’s staring at me, and my mouth goes dry at the intensity of his stare. I want to cheer. He’s defeated this first demon. But the victory didn’t come for free.

  I start to pull my hand away, but he holds me still.

  “Your turn, Goldilocks. Start talking.”

  I want to say something witty, but the best I can do is a pathetic little eye roll, and his smirk tells me he knows I’m backed into a corner I don’t want to be in. It doesn’t stop him for going from the kill.

  “My burning question, Ms. Middleton…and I’ll have the truth, please…”

  I hesitate only slightly before giving a curt nod.

  “Don’t worry. It’s an easy one.” He leans forward. “Who, my dear, is Ethan Price?”

  Chapter Fourteen

  Paul

  Confession: my research on Olivia Middleton has gone beyond just getting her vital stats, like her age and where she’s from. I may or may not have snooped through every picture she’s ever been tagged in.

  And the star of the Olivia show was Ethan Price. A guy who’d been glued to her side in almost every picture for a very, very long time.

  Then, a few months ago, bam. All couple shots ceased.

  And now? This Ethan guy’s profile features a cute, edgy-looking brunette, which makes me think a reconciliation between Olivia and her onetime suitor isn’t likely.

  I shouldn’t care. I don’t care. Olivia Middleton’s love life has nothing to do with me, but the timing is interesting. She drops out of school months after her romantic life explodes? High-tails it to Maine? I’m thinking the two are connected.

  Her shocked expression tells me I’ve caught her off guard with my stalker-worthy information. But it’s not the surprise on her face that intrigues me. It’s the flash of guilt.

  Interesting.

  “How do you know about Ethan?” she asks.

  No big deal. Just dabbling in cyberstalking.

  I absently rub my leg as I study her. In truth, the leg doesn’t hurt as much as I expected, but the fact that such a simple exercise is even remotely difficult is an appalling reminder of exactly how weak the leg has become.

  No, how weak I’ve let it become.

  As much as I hate myself, I hate her more for forcing this upon me. Not only the pain in my leg, but the realization of its weakness. If this keeps up, the next three months just might destroy me. And if that’s the case, I’m taking her with me on the road of destruction. My leg is my weak spot, but I’m betting that Ethan Price is hers.

  “Your privacy settings on your social media profiles leave a lot to be desired,” I finally say in answer to her question.

  “I have nothing to hide.” She lifts her chin a little.

  “Great. Then there should be no problem telling me about your boyfriend.”

  “Ex-boyfriend,” she corrects automatically.

  “Ah,” I say knowingly, even though I’ve already figured that much out. “Do tell.”

  “I just did. You asked
who Ethan Price was, and I told you. He’s my ex-boyfriend. I said I’d give you the truth; I didn’t say I’d give you a rundown on my entire love life.”

  I make a bigger show out of massaging my leg, as if to say, You owe me. Her lips purse for a second, making her look a tiny bit prissy and a lot cute.

  “So,” I prompt, sensing an opening. “He was your entire love life, huh?”

  Her torso twists, as though to turn away, but then her eyes land on my leg and she sighs. “Ethan and I grew up together. We were pretty much dating before either of us knew what dating was. Our families are friends.”

  “Betrothed from the womb?”

  “Something like that,” she mutters.

  “So what happened? You two looked like an after-school special together.”

  Olivia makes a face as she tugs her long sleeves over the tops of her hands in a girlish, protective gesture. “We broke up. It happens.”

  “Sure, but if you guys were dating since before you had pubic hair, there had to be a good reason for the breakup. Unless it was just that you got sick of each other.”

  I know it’s not the latter. She wouldn’t be this edgy if they’d just decided to go their separate ways.

  Her eyes narrow. “Why so interested?”

  “Why so defensive?” I counter.

  But why am I so interested? I tell myself it has everything to do with the fact that I want to know what makes this girl tick in order to keep us on an even footing, and nothing to do with the weird burn of jealousy I felt when I saw that Ethan guy’s arm around her shoulders or the way she’d grinned with a carefree happiness that I had yet to see from her.

  “I’m just ensuring you keep your end of the bargain,” I say, trying to appeal to her sense of fairness. “Wouldn’t want you to feel guilty about tricking poor little me into an aching leg in exchange for nothing.”